I often wonder why I am so indecisive. Is it fear of picking the wrong option? Or being so insecure of my decision-making that I teeter back and forth? Sometimes, especially with feelings, it is a conflict of what I should do compared to what I want to do. Often I go with what I want. This holds me back immensely and keeps my life stagnant. I always say I want change, but then I am not willing to work for it nor commit to it.
Snacked a lot this week. Even binged a little the last two nights. Nothing like I have done in the past, but I'm trying to discover the underlying cause for this behavior. Thinking it has to do with... need new nicknames haha... we'll just call him lost love. Not sure what I want there. Relationships are cute and all, but the risk of your heart being broken is only worth it if the relationship has the potential to grow and go somewhere. As strong as feelings can be, ultimately it is wise to be honest with yourself and make the decision you know to be in your best interest. Need more time to ponder and be objective, but I think I know the answer already.
Missing Hefe. So much distance and complications and possibly a lack of interest. Who knows. But I am fond of Hefe. The mind can be so spectacular.
Expected to write more today because I have been thinking a lot and reflecting. However, I am craving some chicken with a little lime at the moment. I think I will go enjoy that.
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